Any day now...

I am now 36 weeks pregnant. How fast did that time fly? I can't believe it is almost the 6th month of the year. Honestly I thought time was supposed to creep by as a youngin' but it just seems to change before my eyes. I am soooo very uncomfortable, moody, and hormonal. I feel bad for Cam but most days I believe he brought the wrath upon himself. We were married a week ago! We became husband and wife on May 14, 2009. In a quiet ceremony only attended by close family. We decided to do so before the baby to make life a bit easier. Less headache and questions asked once we have little.... DASH. There I said it. His weird little action verb for a name. I've tried calling him other names like Trapper or Tripp. But Dash seems to just fit. I hope his name will fit him. And I hope he doesn't curse us one day for naming him that. If so he can get a name change. Little fact... my parents changed my name when I was still a babe. They named me Eli. Instead of Ellie. So my birth certificate has 2 pages to it. Thanks parents! Anyways I'm honestly thinking one more week until his arrival. I constantly contract and I know its just my body getting ready for this. So I am superwoman this whole week. I clean and organize the hell out of my house. I just don't know what to do with my doggies. Eh I'll worry about that some other time. I don't have anything really to talk about. Its just nice to... speak.

A good song to listen to is by JJ Grey and Mofo called I believe. Its a good one. It helps me with my daily struggles. For instance when a resident compliments on how "huge" I am ... I rip his head off. He didn't mean any harm but just because I am pregnant doesn't mean people can have diarrhea of the mouth and say whatever they want. Well I am going to snuggle with ChaCha and we're going to watch a movie. Hopefully the next time I blog it will be about my beautiful son.

God blessed me with this day to live. I am therefore thankful for all eternity.

It's getting better all the time!

Alot of you don't get to see me on a day to day basis so this is for you! In there is a really cool little boy with a cool name I have yet to decide on!

Life is so good!

The sun is shining and I am still here to enjoy it. I am 7 months along now and getting ever so big! This little boy in my belly is quite the little ninja. But I love him and the heartburn. Today I had an epiphony. I am going to be a grown up. With kids, a job, and a husband. The only thing missing is that white picket fence. Oh well my car/truck infested house is still awesome! I love Camron more than anything and I am so happy we found eachother and god is letting us show our love by having a beautiful little boy named Baby. I am still unsure about Dash. I really like the name Smith or Gray. Smith Camron Johnston. Gray Sevy Johnston. Let me know what you guys think! Life is good and I am blessed. Today is a gift from God so make sure to thank him for it! I love yall!

And we shall call him DASH!

I forgot I even had a blog. I forgot to forget. Pregnancy Brain is thee worst! We went to the Dr. and sure enough it was a boy. Our little Dash Camron. I knew it was a boy before we even went in. I did have my heart set on having a girl. But there isn't much I can do about it now except for cry. Which I do randomly at baby clothing stores when I see little girl clothes. I am happy and coming to terms. I do love him so much and can feel him doing his water aerobics inside my belly. It is the most amazing feeling in the world! I will be sitting and relaxing and all of a sudden I feel this little "pop, pop" its just my little boy letting me know he is just being a ninja.

I am not as nauseous as I used to be, but I do throw up still. Now its only once or twice a week. Which is such a load of crap! Everyone says it goes away, well ahem let me tell you it SO does not! I also need to get on the maternity clothes bandwagon, so far I have refused and been somewhat able to get away with it. PSSHT not lately! I am so happy and forgetful now a days but life is good! God bless you all, most importantly do not forget your family.

Ellie and Dash

He finally asked the question!

It was the big one. The one I've been waiting for! No it wasn't, "what color of manolo blahniks would you like?" Camron James Johnston asked me to marry him last night. He is amazing!! Everyday we eat our Christmas calendar chocolate countdown. So last night he was like oh here babe don't forget todays date, I opened the square and there was my ring! He asked me and immediately I said yes. We are so happy. I have a great man in my life, a baby on the way, and I am in good health. How could I be so lucky? I look at how my life has changed in just one short year. I went from being devastated and alone to being filled with love in my life. Our families are thrilled that it is finally going to happen! Anyways next week on the 23rd I go to the doctor and we might be able to tell what the sex of the baby is. HOPEFULLY AHHHHHH! I am pretty sure it will be a stinky boy. No matter what I will love you little butterbean! Ok bye!

Shake what yo mama gave ya, it took her 9 months to make ya!

Today was my 2nd app at the baby docter. I love Carter so much, she is thee coolest doctor ever! She is having her baby this weekend ( like I said everyone is pregnant). I am 10 1/2 weeks starting to get a lil bump and can't seem to stop the hunger. At my app today she did an ultrasound and it was amazing to see this little blob turn into a somewhat baby in just 3 short weeks. We saw the chord, the arms, and legs. In the middle of looking at baby it starting kicking and waiving its arms! It was the most amazing thing in the world. My little peanut is kicking and being so active and I can't even feel it! We listened to the heart beat and just sat in awe. Carter said that with a strong heartbeat and it being so active it is a less chance of losing it. Life is a gift from god and we should never take these little miracles for granted. Cam was so happy when we left, I think it is starting to sink in that he is going to be a father. I think it sunk in when I couldn't stop throwing up! Which that is getting a lot better by the way. Anyways I'll keep ya updated for our next app is Dec 23.

Tough love

It's crazy when I stop and count on my fingers who is all pregnant around me! It seems like everyone is mating. I am lucky to be in the situation I am in, but it does get hard. It is a constant battle. I work every day and go to school even more. I want to get as much schooling before this little one arrives but I feel overwhelmed and overworked at the end of every day. Is it worth it? I don't know yet. I am getting ready to register for next semester and I find myself having a panic attack. I will be in my final stages of my pregnancy. Do I really want to overexert myself? How will I do this with 3 dogs, 2 frogs, a man friend, and an infant. Breathe, breathe. I guess the weather is making me a Debbie downer. Life is so hard and it is unfair. But we just have to keep on going and don't ever look back. I really have nothing important to talk about tonight, but sometimes you just need to talk. I haven't had a real conversation all day, past the normal standards. Anyways here are some names we are thinking about for the baby. We will know by Christmas what the sex is. Everyone pray for a girl!!

Girls: Capri Ann Johnston (google the song capri by colbie caillat) and Piper Marie Johnston
Boys: Tripp Sevy Johnston, Trapper Camron Johnston and maybe Dash Smith Johnston

let me know what you think!